I Spoke to my unborn child!

I do believe that although you have not been formed in my womb, you are there, in the deepest place, where God is downloading you with all things pertaining to life, for the skyscraper life  you are to lead. At times though, I so badly want to meet you, but when I look at how rough the world is, the disfunctionalities in society, how the abnormal things have been made normal. I question my desire to bring you into such world. Amidst the fears I’m reminded though, that my fears can’t abort Gods purpose, because I know that is what you are. So in the midst of my fears which are  at times overwhelming, I know I must yield to the greater will, Gods creation of you.

At times, in my secret place when no one is watching, I push my tummy out and pretend you are there, I talk to you, because in my heart I believe you are listening. Insane others may say, but not at all for me, cause I know that every word I speak, one day I will see the fruits therefof.So let me speak to you my dear child, let mama tell you one of the greatest lessons I recently learned and wish to share with you, which I believe will help you as you try and make sense of world and your place and purpose in it.

If there is one thing that I will drill into your head from the time your mind can comprehend, is that you can be anything that you want to be. You see my love, all my life I desired to be on TV, not for fame but I believed and still believe that media is one of the greatest mediums, which can be used constructively when placed in the right hands. But because of external pressures I began to down play my dream, because in a home of academic and high achievers being on TV is seen as  aiming low and ambitionless.

It’s painful my love, to live in the shadow of others , to try and impress people who will never really be impressed by you, and who will later not be there to assist when their expert advice on the “best career path “fails dismally. So If asked what I know now, that I wish I knew then, I would wish that I trusted and listened to my inner voice more than the opinions of others.

I look back though, at times with regret but also with gratitude because I see now that they are certain lessons that can only be learned through the fire. And maybe all that I have been through is to teach you you, not to go down the similar path, not to make the same mistakes, and if you make them, to know that I am here to walk you through it all. So my love, when you know what you want in life, stick to the convictions of your heart, let nothing  down play your dream, not even you, There is no bar, you will have as far as your eyes can see.