My story is one......GRACE!

Many a times when I meet people on the street the first words I hear is how wonderful my status updates are and what a blessing they are in their lives, and my response to them is always it’s about God and to him be the praise. The reason why I say that is because I understand fully that were it not for the GRACE of God I wouldn’t be who I am today. You see, what my wonderful updates don’t tell you, is the story behind them all. I wasn’t always like this, I didn’t supernaturally wake up and be the woman I am today. In fact I was the total opposite, confused, lost, no identity, going nowhere slowly…till I met God, in whom I found my being and reason to live.

So when you meet me, you see the product of Grace and it alone, you will meet someone who is not perfect, far from, but just being kept by God for his divine purpose. Ndincedwa ngu bawo bazalalwane, every day I am kept in him by the word and through prayer without him I know I won’t make it, for he is all I have got. All I am today is through the things I have learned along the way. I found God in the tears I had to cry when he told me to let go of people I held so dearly to my life, but their season had come to an end and letting go and letting God became my only option. You see God had to teach and is still teaching, total dependence on him, where there are no crutches, no one to run to as a first option, but him.

Through it all I have found a loving father, comforter, who is more real than anything I see with my physical eyes. A man who can’t be fooled by my lip serves, for he knows me and evaluates my heart to see what really matters most to me. It is not by power or might but by his spirit that many of us are able to live this Christian life. It’s not that it’s hard, not that at all, but greatness costs you something and it’s those things that you hold dear that eventually you will have to let go of. I’m learning that salvation is not really about what we gain, the cars, houses, status, cause you can and will have those things, for the advancement of his Kingdom, and still be like “Now that I have them, so what, still  not fulfilled.”, for our fulfillment is in Christ and him alone .

It’s really about the things that we let go of, those relationships that we walk away from, even though everything within us just wants to hold on, it’s how we daily allow God to make us, to break us, then mold us, so that our souls be aligned to the word. That’s the essence of salvation, not the tongues, not the preaching, but for your spirit to take over your soul, to be one with yourself, spirit, body and soul, for your soul to be born of the word. A man of God once said: “The highest dimension of the word is becoming what you have said, being an embodiment of what you confess and apprehend that which he called you to be before the foundations of the earth.”